Archive for September, 2012

Fuck!

Uncategorized | September 25th, 2012

My brain won’t shut off…so there’s this. It’s a rough cut from the recordings that John and I are currently working on. I wrote this song the night after I almost got raped by 3 guys in some bathroom near Philly Summer 2011. I got drunk and down on my self, and made an ass out of myself with this sound guy I’d been hanging out with. I was horny, and had just started my period. I was really fucking tired, but the mobile stage was being used to supply the music for the after party, which meant sleep wasn’t… Continue Reading →

Drifter

Uncategorized | September 24th, 2012

I feel like I live many different lives sometimes. Life is drifting, continually. Having a hard time keeping track of days, and hating that my next tour is only going to last for 10 of them. Everything is everything. Music with John seems to be flowing in a forward motion with minimal effort. We already have 8 tracks down…drums, vocals, bass…some guitar. You ever feel like you’re moving so fast that you’re not really moving at all? I’ve been feeling weird and unmotivated lately, even though I seem to be accomplishing many things. I think I just need to be… Continue Reading →

Love

Uncategorized | September 19th, 2012

and somewhere in it all, I just drift away, drunk on emotion…

Can Never Have It All

Uncategorized | September 13th, 2012

I want a teleportation machine So I could find you in a dream Live in all the moments that unravel me Live out all the secrets I seek but never speak For fear that life is a lie Let me live inside the moment Where you always look that way Combine the bests of all of you So I’d never have to stray Love is such a waste To only have the little tastes There’s so much I never say So much I still deny No matter how much truth I live There’s still those little lies My mind drifts… Continue Reading →

Thoughts on Sobriety

Uncategorized | September 12th, 2012

I’m not really sure how long I’ve been sober for now. I know my last drink was before going to Idaho with Amanda. Feels like it was ages ago. Oddly enough, being sober at Punx In The Woods and at Dave’s bachelor party wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. Good thing I was sober for the party bus though, otherwise, I don’t think everyone would’ve made it back…at some point we would’ve all wandered off to our own devices far away from the bus if I hadn’t been the drunk herder. What was hard was not drinking… Continue Reading →

Hard To Take A Compliment

Uncategorized | September 12th, 2012

So…my last therapy session was about trying to be more approachable. It is so hard for me to accept compliments, and I think I’ve been putting some of my fans off after a show when they tell me they really like my music. When I say “Thank You”, I really do mean it. It is so fucking hard for me to say “Thank You”. I used to put myself down instead. Despite what folks may think, I still have some self-esteem issues. I sing and perform, because it’s the best way I know how to release. I don’t do it… Continue Reading →